I answer my classroom phone.
“I found out what’s wrong with Shina, Ms. Freeman.”
It’s Mrs. Henderson. I glance at Shina, already finished with her Do Now and looking bored.
“She moving in the next week or so,” Mrs. Henderson continues. “So if she seems disengaged, that’s why. She spent part of her elective with me because she was upset and needed a minute to get herself together.”
Shina lives up to the warning, but instead of being disengaged, she is abrasive and blunt, ready to argue with anyone who crosses her. I find myself being too easy, too patient. Shina is my favorite student—and suddenly I realize how much I take these days for granted.
Soon she will be gone. Continue reading
Unfortunately, anxiety is an emotion I am all too familiar with. I’ve battled anxiety throughout my life, watching it wax and wane depending on my life circumstances, engaging in an ongoing process of learning how to cope with my anxious feelings. During my time as a corps member, my anxiety was particularly bad. It even got to the point where I experienced a panic attack—a really scary experience that I didn’t fully understand at the time.
I’ve been out of the corps for several years now, and have begun training in a counseling psychology graduate program. Through my training, I’ve learned some helpful things about anxiety that I wish I’d known back when I was a CM.